Submissions by mel44
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write as an outlet to make sense of my world and experiences. My purpose of sharing my words with others is in the hope that readers may identify with them insofar as what it means for them.
Awry
History repeats
resting still
here alone
feeling ill
what happened
to today?
all motivation
slipped away
lost is time
life a chore
a disposition
required cure
unbearable
unhealthy place
desperate
seeking grace
no light exists
tunnel dark
in despair
without spark
grey and dreary
this day amiss
all seems dull
emotional abyss
resting still
here alone
feeling ill
what happened
to today?
all motivation
slipped away
lost is time
life a chore
a disposition
required cure
unbearable
unhealthy place
desperate
seeking grace
no light exists
tunnel dark
in despair
without spark
grey and dreary
this day amiss
all seems dull
emotional abyss
#despair
#emptiness
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Noise
I cannot tune out
the sound around
head spinning
heart does pound
saturating
all my thinking
eyes blurred
surely sinking
unable to dull
sharp noises about
manic spiral
without doubt
wicked trick
mind does play
devoid the calm
lost my way
smothered in volume
to no end
stop it now
my will does bend
holding breath
needing ease
far too much
save me please
the sound around
head spinning
heart does pound
saturating
all my thinking
eyes blurred
surely sinking
unable to dull
sharp noises about
manic spiral
without doubt
wicked trick
mind does play
devoid the calm
lost my way
smothered in volume
to no end
stop it now
my will does bend
holding breath
needing ease
far too much
save me please
#LifeStruggles
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Two
We had each other
it was me and you
for this reason
she said she had two
We did not realise
how much she knew
when we were young
it was just us two
Had disagreements
indeed quite a few
nonetheless
each a part of two
Growing older
the losses did accrue
Each thinking alone
finding we were still two
The empathy strings
are ringing on cue
feeling your hurt
I want to be two
Now so far away
her words never more true
wishing I was there ...
it was me and you
for this reason
she said she had two
We did not realise
how much she knew
when we were young
it was just us two
Had disagreements
indeed quite a few
nonetheless
each a part of two
Growing older
the losses did accrue
Each thinking alone
finding we were still two
The empathy strings
are ringing on cue
feeling your hurt
I want to be two
Now so far away
her words never more true
wishing I was there ...
#family
#NaPoWriMo2024
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False Dilemma
No burden of chains
created to be free
and with that comes
eminent responsibility
Absent the belief
my path predefined
options and alternatives
selection unconfined
Truth I am not immune
consequences for choice
with some I shall suffer
and from others, I’ll rejoice
Future not predetermined
yet, judgement does await
an accountability exists
but freewill procures my fate
created to be free
and with that comes
eminent responsibility
Absent the belief
my path predefined
options and alternatives
selection unconfined
Truth I am not immune
consequences for choice
with some I shall suffer
and from others, I’ll rejoice
Future not predetermined
yet, judgement does await
an accountability exists
but freewill procures my fate
#NaPoWriMo2024
#spiritual
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Not Alone
Wishing not
to drowse in sleep
tomorrow comes far too soon
lying down
awake in thought
gazing at the waxing moon
ponderous
question now
what the future holds for me
reflecting
foregoing rest
saying prayers that I may see
eyes weighty
begin to drift
to a place where I can dream
not alone
in the darkness
more content than I may seem
to drowse in sleep
tomorrow comes far too soon
lying down
awake in thought
gazing at the waxing moon
ponderous
question now
what the future holds for me
reflecting
foregoing rest
saying prayers that I may see
eyes weighty
begin to drift
to a place where I can dream
not alone
in the darkness
more content than I may seem
#hope
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sleep
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Finding Hope
Amid a visceral pain
knowing I am alive
transient discomfort
where I often thrive
Through evident struggles
a place I find strength
fighting vicious battles
going to any length
Always a survivor
despite the suffering
remaining in a state
of constant recovering
Grateful for wisdoms
not easily learned
while enduring the storms
my life has been earned
Invariably discovering
a better means to cope
as long as I keep trying
forever finding hope
knowing I am alive
transient discomfort
where I often thrive
Through evident struggles
a place I find strength
fighting vicious battles
going to any length
Always a survivor
despite the suffering
remaining in a state
of constant recovering
Grateful for wisdoms
not easily learned
while enduring the storms
my life has been earned
Invariably discovering
a better means to cope
as long as I keep trying
forever finding hope
#hope
#LifeStruggles
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Still
I tried to comfort you
in your lonely days
and melancholy ways
That you were isolated
was a matter of decision
a self-imposed prison
With compassion
I encouraged connection
but you fell, into abjection
Wishing for something
to foster will to live
yet, you remained resistive
It must have been awful
being on your own
always feeling so desperately alone
Not believing worthy
an excruciating void
self-worth became destroyed
I was unable to save you
not even from...
in your lonely days
and melancholy ways
That you were isolated
was a matter of decision
a self-imposed prison
With compassion
I encouraged connection
but you fell, into abjection
Wishing for something
to foster will to live
yet, you remained resistive
It must have been awful
being on your own
always feeling so desperately alone
Not believing worthy
an excruciating void
self-worth became destroyed
I was unable to save you
not even from...
#death
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sadness
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Absent the Hunger
I heard the birds
chose not to rise
tears betray
my blurry eyes
Resting here
unable to sleep
unknown reasons
for why I weep
I am not meant
to exist today
how I feel
no words convey
Devoid of senses
empty, numb
no smell or flavour
seems to come
Absent the hunger
deficient desire
without even a start
decision to retire
chose not to rise
tears betray
my blurry eyes
Resting here
unable to sleep
unknown reasons
for why I weep
I am not meant
to exist today
how I feel
no words convey
Devoid of senses
empty, numb
no smell or flavour
seems to come
Absent the hunger
deficient desire
without even a start
decision to retire
#despair
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sadness
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Untitled
Oh I am so tired
of cold, wind and rain
reverberating echoes
cyclone in my brain
spirits creeping
remnants of past
haunting darkness
shadows cast
growing more weary
worse than before
a constant cloud cover
forgetting to soar
not protected
no armour to wear
demons devour
without a care
drowning in wreckage
an emotional flood
this time the enemy
out for blood
of cold, wind and rain
reverberating echoes
cyclone in my brain
spirits creeping
remnants of past
haunting darkness
shadows cast
growing more weary
worse than before
a constant cloud cover
forgetting to soar
not protected
no armour to wear
demons devour
without a care
drowning in wreckage
an emotional flood
this time the enemy
out for blood
#dark
#depression
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Once We Were
Occasional tears
never do dry
because it mattered
the reason I cry
A bit of me broken
yet living on
despite the pain
from a time now gone
Memories recalled
reminded of your scent
fond recollection
moments we spent
Once lovers, now friends
both of us changed
the future we had
has been rearranged
From love that was
I shall not hide
for you always
a place aside
never do dry
because it mattered
the reason I cry
A bit of me broken
yet living on
despite the pain
from a time now gone
Memories recalled
reminded of your scent
fond recollection
moments we spent
Once lovers, now friends
both of us changed
the future we had
has been rearranged
From love that was
I shall not hide
for you always
a place aside
#love
#breakup
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Anxiety
Happening again
I am reeling
impotent to change
the way I’m feeling
racing thoughts
cannot breathe
panic envelops
no reprieve
chest heavy
fists are tight
anxious, scared
fight or flight
unable to run
wanting to hide
frozen in place
pain inside
body shaking
I close my eyes
no one there
to hear my cries
I am ill
there is no buffer
in distress
alone I suffer
I am reeling
impotent to change
the way I’m feeling
racing thoughts
cannot breathe
panic envelops
no reprieve
chest heavy
fists are tight
anxious, scared
fight or flight
unable to run
wanting to hide
frozen in place
pain inside
body shaking
I close my eyes
no one there
to hear my cries
I am ill
there is no buffer
in distress
alone I suffer
#anxiety
#NaPoWriMo2024
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Majority Rules
So very high and mighty
upon your stepping stool
belief you are of greater value
simply because you rule
Born of privilege
of this you cannot ignore
built solely on the backs
of the needy and the poor
Reaping benefits
meant only for a few
thinking you are superior
from an obscured view
You are disadvantaged
no capacity for compassion
pretending you are worthy
based on the clothes you fashion
All that was provided
only makes you weak
lacking skills to discover
the more of...
upon your stepping stool
belief you are of greater value
simply because you rule
Born of privilege
of this you cannot ignore
built solely on the backs
of the needy and the poor
Reaping benefits
meant only for a few
thinking you are superior
from an obscured view
You are disadvantaged
no capacity for compassion
pretending you are worthy
based on the clothes you fashion
All that was provided
only makes you weak
lacking skills to discover
the more of...
#NaPoWriMo2024
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